This Is How You Lose Your Day

There is a day you feel you win the day, and there is another day you feel down and are completely lost. Life is difficult to live with complete happiness as you know. You cannot live a life always filled with a smile but filled with desires, jealousy, tiresome, and such negative feelings. You want to conquer such negativity, but actually, you should embrace such feelings to admit yourself. I know that. But, life is not that easy. You don’t have to be depressed, but you can feel down.

Anyway, yesterday was a day like that. I went to bed without achieving some of my daily routines. Watching YouTube videos that seem at least fun to me at the time but actually not that worthy to watch, and gradually sink into the deep ocean of sleeping, realizing I lost the day, the feeling of regret that I couldn’t do something I should have done. Believing to keep doing something almost every day makes you somebody, I would think like that.

But anyway, that is life. The point is that you should not feel down that much and pretend you feel really down. As long as we are fine enough to smile at anyone, it’s totally OK. Then, I remember the line of a very famous Japanese pop music “Donna Tokimo (At any time)” by Makihara Hiroyuki. This song is full of great quotes.

Original Version

“消えたいくらい辛い気持ち 抱えていても 鏡の前 笑ってみる まだ平気みたいだよ”
Even though you have a painful feeling of wanting to disappear
Smiling at a mirror, I think you are still okay. (Translated by myself)

Searching the song, I found that there are some other language versions. I hope you would check out and feel positive again soon. Thank you for reading!

English Version
Spanish Version

What Beer and Yakiniku (Japanese BBQ) means to Japanese/ One of the best combinations Ever

Beer and Yakiniku make your day just perfect

Living and growing up in Japanese society for 28 years, my favorite food gradually has changed due to the changing of my life stages (french toast is a stable favorite food for me throughout life though). I don’t boost or want to be biased though, Japan is also famous for its unique diverse food culture. Japan is often criticized as a nation of peer pressure or lack of diversity. However, in terms of food or culture of cuisine, Japan is a nation of the great diversity of food culture, I think. Of course, you cannot have the real rural traditional Italian pasta in Tokyo, but it may have great quality for it, and it is really easy for the nation to access such high-quality cuisines at a cheaper price.

Every nation has a great food combination in its unique culture. At this time, I’d like to introduce you to one of the greatest food combinations (actually food and drink) in Japan. It’s sometimes described as a metaphor for a great combination. It is, Beer and Yakiniku. Beer is beer (My favorite, and the most well-known beer brand in Japan is Asahi’s SUPER DRY ). Yakiniku is a Japanese for BBQ, but Yakiniku can be enjoyed at a Yakiniku Restaurant with a small table and a kind of portable cooking stove.

Please imagine a day. It’s a very rough day. The work you dealt with the day was very heavy and your boss is just an asshole. You somehow struggle to survive and try to finish the day, and you did it. Then, looking at the clock, it shows 7 o’clock pm. You are very hungry. Your best colleagues suddenly hit upon a magical idea and tell the other ones “It was a rough day. Why don’t we go and celebrate our great work with beer and yakiniku, eh?” Then, the word can be imagined with a clear picture and the hint of the smell, and you wish to drink the cold beer with it as much as you can. Yakiniku and beer are very addictive. Meanwhile, you suddenly found that every familiar colleagues are surrounding at a table, and waiting for the coming of beer and yakiniku. Then, you do cheers and the happiest moment in your day would arrive.

This is what we Japanese reminds when we heard the word yakiniku and beer. Most of us cannot stop drooling a lot with these words. I had never thought that there would be a great combination more than BigMac and Coke when I was a teenager. Being an adult sometimes works.

Thank you very much for reading, and have a great day.

My Ideal Daily Routine that Makes My Condition Really Good

My birthday is getting closer day by day. December 23rd is my birthday and I’ll be 29 years old this year. Facing the huge wall of the 30s, I’ve been feeling something a bit of matureness or sophistication about my life. My mentor once told me when I asked him “When will I finally be able to find my calling?”, he (a university professor) told me like “looking my students graduated from my university, they seem to have found such things by 30 years old”. Then, “the 30 years old” became a kind of “curse word” to me. Anyway, that’s another story.

Today, I’d like to list up my ideal daily routine which I have invented and revised and I think it’s the latest and updated routine, which makes my day almost perfect if I achieve those. I somehow end-up with this routine to make myself healthy, I would keep brushing up my lists.

1. Toilet Cleaning
After getting ready to go out, I’m cleaning the toilet. Those who are really rich often tells advice like this, but you have no idea why you should do this for getting rich. However, your feeling must be refreshed and cleaned like your toilet. So, I have no reason, but I would really recommend you this habit.

2. Updating blog
Keep doing every day makes you grow. Practice makes perfect. As an English teacher, I’d like to use English as a tool to express my feeling, and when I look back at how many articles have I posted, I can get confident.

3. Study English
If I were a professional baseball player, I need to practice every day. If I were a craftsman, I would research everything about my job. So, what about me? What is the duty of being an English teacher? You need to prepare really seriously about your classes, and brush up on your English ability. But, it is also true that most teachers in Japan are very busy unfairly. It’s so easy that you blame the system or government, and I also think it’s important. However, that would never be an excuse not to study or prepare for classes with this negative feeling. Therefore, I’d like to do my best for brushing up on myself in my career.

4. Cooking
Cooking can be a therapy for your soul. There is a famous book called “Chicken soup for the soul”, but to me, cooking or eating well directly means good for your soul and body. In Japan, the verb Eat is described as 食べる, and this Chinese character 食 consists of 人(human), 良(good). In short, Eating makes you good. What a wonderful word. If you eat well, your life must be well.

5. Swing Practice of Kendo
My hobby is Kendo (Japanese traditional martial arts), and I want to be stronger. The beginning of my training was slightly late (from 26 years old) though, I will never excuse this. I should just keep practicing using YouTube live channel or some motivation arousal tips.

6. Eat a lot of vegetables
People my age tend to eat too much meat, intake oil, and drink too much. All I need is to eat more vegetables and work out more frequently.

7. Taking Online English Lesson
I’m taking an online English lesson on Rare Job. This is just fun for me. You don’t use English that much (hardly ever for the most Japanese, ironically), so this online service provides me a lot of chances to speak English. Moreover, you can sometimes talk about your private issues with tutors, so it’s also a kind of counseling too.

Hope you have a great routine and my list can inspire your daily habits.
Thank you so much for reading this article.

100th Article: Still Not Sure What To Write

Thank you for visiting and reading this article. This is memorial No. 100 article. The first article on this site was Drepressing Tuesday morning posted on May 5th, 2020, in the middle of depressing days of unknown early stage of COVID pandemic. The school was canceled during the time, so I started finding a new hobby that can fulfill my quarantine or stay home days. The article is about that kind of thing.

Somehow, I’ve been writing for this site in English (even though I’m Japanese) for nearly 1 year and 6 months and finally made 100 articles. If I post articles every day for this term, there should have been about 540 articles. So lazy days to write. Hmm… continuity is the father of success.

So, let me give you my imaginal interview session to celebrate this 100th post. Answers are pretty honest feelings of myself.

1. The reason why did you start writing an English blog?
I just don’t know. I just thought it would be cool if a Japanese teacher of English has an English blog and interact with some foreigners through comment sections, and anyway, during writing some article about anything, it’s fun to write. But every time I write, I feel a bit of sorrow because I cannot write as fluent as Japanese. I’m always thinking like if I could write English as Japanese, I can express my feelings in more funnier way or more impressive way.

2. What do you want to focus on writing in this blog?
I still don’t have any idea. Maybe I should write what I should write, but sometimes I open the posting page (I even set this page as a default one though) and wonder what I should write about, and find every flactals of my thoughts seems so boring that I sometimes quit and start to watch YouTube instead. I’m always secretly hoping like “Someone, please gimmie a topic for writing!” or like that. In short, there are two types of people I think. Someone who can work hard for yourself, or somebody else. I think I’m kinda the latter.

3. How old are you now, and what kind of goals do you set?
I’m 28 and becoming 29 this December. Shit. I will be 30 soon. 30 means entering a new generation to me (like entering a new park in Disney land). Anyhow, there are so many things that I want to achieve. Something can be bought and others are not able to be bought, but maybe got by your efforts. I wanna Kendo 7 dan, and want to live in New York and want to be free from money and become a funny person who can perform like a global comedian, and want to get Novel Prize for Literature. But man, I’m gonna be 30 soon. Can I make those goals seriously? Are they too big goals? I have no idea.

4. This article is getting too long, so please make a closing address.
So, dear my dearest readers. Thank you so so much for accessing and reading my contentless articles like green peppers. I don’t know if you enjoy my articles or this site content though, I feel I should not stop writing English posts. This is a kind of Keiko (a Japanese expression for practice for traditional Japanese arts) for me to learn and improve my English. I don’t know when I can finally make you happy or laugh or be touched by my English though, I’m always trying to move your heart. If you can leave a comment I would love to read and that would be a huge gas or petrol for myself. Thank you so much for reading here. See you tomorrow’s article!

When you feel stressed out

Ah… we maybe all have some characters who we don’t like or difficult to be friend with. The day when you witnessed very stressful moments with him or her, your day suddenly seems rainy day even though the outside is pretty sunny. I believe that there are people who we can’t get along. I’m not talking about discrimination. However, you know. There is a comedian’s quote. “Everyone has somebody you don’t like or feel irritated when you saw them, if you don’t have such people, YOU are the person.”

Anyhow, one of a character who I’m not enough to be confident to get along with is a person who talk too much (90% meaningless), talk too long, talk to me too often, and the story is re-run kind of story or something really boring one. I, literally, can’t bear with hearing boring stories, and sometimes I even feel total waste of time. Then, I feel very mixed feeling. If I say “Sorry but it’s enough now”, I feel like I lost against something. Hmm… am I rather an asshole pretender?

Like any people wish, I want to spend life with full of positive mind, and friends or colleagues. But, it’s just an ideal thought. There are no such utopia in this world. But at least, I want to be more generous guy who can be smile in any stressful situations with natural sense.

Let’s be confident with your impression

Today’s world seems to be too open and be filled with lots and lots of somebody’s ideas or opinions as if everyone is a critic of something. Yes. I’m talking about the world united by Internet. We are living in a society in which we are forced to share almost everything.

GAFA recommends that we should live more uniquely, and we’ve somehow believed such things actually matters. However, what we have done is buying more stuff on Amazon which is slightly different from your friends’ audio speaker, and try to search “an answer” of everything that would be never found on the Internet with Google. Using sophisticated Apple device and write a “unique” critical comments for people around the world on Facebook or Twitter. Including myself, we are maybe creating a great world with our unique way.

Why I’m so depressed with the Internet today, is because I just searched an impression of a Japanese new TV drama series. Actually, the impression after watching the drama was pretty good to me. But, when I googled “(The name of the drama) + reputation”, the most of titles or posts listed on the top were “The new series was awful” or such negative entries. Then, I felt something so wrong, and I feel sad to see such comments.

Maybe I just wanted to believe and be confident with my own reputation or impression on things. But, thanks to the Internet, we can compare or search on almost everything, and you can find an “answer-like answer” on the web. But, how valuable is it? Everyone can say and write freely on the Internet, and that’s very beautiful thing and stupid thing at the same time. Today, I just want to confirm that we don’t need to prioritize the ideas on the Internet too much, and we should rather be confident with our genuine idea more in today’s world and era. I believe we should not follow the idea on the internet but the idea before the Internet. That must make us more free and more unique person.

Fall/Autumn is the best season for…

There is a popular Japanese idiomatic expression “◯◯の秋(◯◯’s Fall/Autumn)”. What it means is “Fall is the best season for 〇〇”, and the famous expressions are like, “食欲の秋(Fall is the best season for appetite because it’s the season for harvest)”, “スポーツの秋(for sports because the temperature is suitable and the ratio of sunny days are relatively higher than any other seasons in Japan.)” or “読書の秋(for reading books because the sun set around 5pm compared to the summer season of 7pm)”. After all, Fall in Japan is maybe the best season for everything in Japan.

What would you think of your “◯◯’s Fall”? In my opinion, it is the best season for breathing. Air, basically, doesn’t have “the season” like any other vegetables or fruits. But, I personally think it definitely has the season. Without any doubts, I believe that It’s fall that we can enjoy the most delicious air. Living in a countryside of Hokkaido, I somehow feel a kind of zenith of deliciousness of the pure, aesthetic, sophisticated cold air. We can just describe it as a clean cold air in country side, but I would rather feel something else that can make me feel so happy.

You can feel such air when you get out the entrance, or a night you opened a window and sip a hot milk. You realize the air is somehow connected to the earth, and realize how pure the air can be. Winter air is much strict, and too cold to enjoy to me. But, I would like to share this feeling with you someday. We are not eating something, but eating air too. This is said by Haruki Murakami. That would be one of the reason why you feel something’s wrong when you eat Italian pasta in Japanese restaurant and don’t take it as the same taste you had in Italy. Air is such an important factor in our lives, and why don’t we enjoy our air more from now?

Efforts that you don’t feel as efforts

Do you have some things which requires a certain efforts for people but not for you. There are some things that you can use a kind of “the force” thing, for instance, like everyone struggles to write an essay, but somehow you can finish writing really quickly. It can be said as a talent, but today, I would call the ability more like “the force” in Star Wars movies.

Everyone seems to have a force for something. Of course we can’t make something fly or kill somebody softly with the power though, maybe there are something that can be called “the force” in this world. One of my kind of force is to write something, talking with fun to the very first meeting people, all compared to people I’ve met before.

Some people feel a thing that create huge stress, but you can even feel joy from the action. There are such things, and I want to keep brushing such my precious ability up for the entire life. The news of a Japanese scientist receiving Nobel Prize for Physics was buzzed in yesterday, and one of a media quoted his comments, which was like “I actually had no idea that my research object would be important research theme from the beginning, but I was very passionate about the research topic from more that 30 years ago (the system of climate changing)”.

Perhaps we should keep trying on something we can do without efforts. I mean, efforts we don’t feel them as the way average people feel. Then, we can enjoy the effort and we don’t have to regret in the future.

Globalization is a positive force in today’s world?

I don’t know any other countries’ educational goal of “English”, speaking of Japanese education, it is stated like “to grow a person who can accustomed to this world in globalization”. I feel this statement really weird. It sounds a bit cheap goal to me. In short, I don’t think globalization has such a great effects in todays world.

Firstly, thanks to the invention of Internet, we can easily communicate with foreigners without actual traveling or moving but just on the Internet. Almost everyone can access to tons of information through Google. This happy situation also made the world that force one nation compete not only with domestic nations but foreign nations. Say, if you are Japanese, your rival is no more just Japanese but Foreigners because everyone can work for your favorite country using Internet. Moreover, this create very unforeseeable economic situations around the world. When you got fired, you would not know the reason because the factor of economy became much more complicated than before due to this globalization.

Secondly, globalization seems not to prioritize the unique culture or languages. English as world language is seen as very valuable and important world in today, but actually, each own nations’ culture must have the same value each other. Therefore, this situation can easily kill minority cultures or traditions which seems out of so called global standard.

Lastly, in today’s globalized world, the pandemic can frequently be happened. One of the main reason of the fast spreading of recent C0VID-19 is definitely due to the globalized world. People who has dangerous virus can travel around the world easily and that means the virus spread around the world easily at the same time.

Nobody can deny the strong power or the stream of globalization today, however, I think the world is overrated in today’s world, and I think we should realize the local beauty again today.

You don’t know when you die

Sorry for this shocking title, but nobody would understand this meaning more than today’s us. The most important lesson leant from this pandemic was there were literally no proof that we can live tomorrow like yesterday. In short, we finally realize that we have no idea of when we will be dead or the world ends. I’m not supposed to make you scary but rather I want to see the bright side of this lesson today.

People often say and be told that you should do what you want to do. But, how many people can live like this? For instance, you want to have a piano in your tiny room, but you can’t buy it right now because you have not enough money to buy, and there is not enough room to put the piano. However, the COVID19 told us that even there are such a hard situation, you should buy and put it in your tiny room because you can be dead tomorrow. It sounds a bit extreme argument though, I recently really think like this way. Let’s do things that you’ve wanted to do right now! Then, you can lose your “perfect timing” forever. So, why don’t you start writing your fiction, or tell somebody love you, and somehow buy a cheap piano? There is always a way after all.

Personally, I think I need to work harder, and want to write a great novel, and practice the piano, and want to read tons of interesting books, and want to hang out with my precious friends, and want to say I love you from the bottom of my heart. Now I finally found that I have so so many thing to do in my life, in this short moments. I don’t want to spoil my precious time but actually if I try to tackle with all these things at once, I could easily get down. Therefore, the wisest way which seemed to me so now, is just keep trying everyday. It’s like accumulating a sheet of paper one by one everyday. But hopefully, someday I can see a beautiful scene standing on the papers.