What I think When One year has passed since I lost opportunities to see friends in Tokyo

There is a strange Japanglish expression, “the Golden Week(GW)” describing for the succeeding bank holidays in May in Japan. Yes, it is officially said that I’m now somehow spending the dazzling Golden weeks as anybody else. Of course, I am a government employee teacher, so basically I have 5 holidays I deserve to take. However, also officially, the teachers in Japan are infamous for a kind of the busiest teachers in Japan, so it’s a bit tricky for us to think about this GW. (The most of the Japanese school teachers are doing roles of not only teacher but also club coach or a jack of all trades…). Anyhow, the most of us are spending a kind of semi-GW right now.

However, the Covid-19 has spread uncontrollably for now, and we are spending boring GW again. You can not take an airplane ticket to visit Tokyo, or see your relatives and drink together much even in your hometown, and I’m feeling extremely frustrated even though I live in the very very countryside of Japan. Therefore, I actually cannot imagine how much stressful life Tokyoites live. And that’s why some of my gloomy friends try to ZOOM call me again and again these days (basically I like such ZOOM calling). Speaking of ZOOM, there are tons of ZOOM lecture meeting thing instead of having a physical meeting these days, but in my opinion, that is too loose. Once you turned off your camera, you suddenly find yourself watching the lecture lying on the bed drinking a beer with UNIQLO pajama.

Anyway, today, I want to say something about the ZOOM call. Since the pandemic begin, the call with my friends really increased. You cannot meet in reality, so you need to call. This situation looks really similar to distanced love situation to me. You cannot go out frequently if your lover lives in a foreign country. So you need to call frequently, write airmails, you cannot fill the gap between you and your lover. Phew. You got tired and that’s how I broke up with my ex girlfriends who studied abroad in US.

The point is, the fact that the ZOOM call is totally not enough to me. Very far from enough to me. We are a kind of musical instruments. We should tune our strings by meeting or talking with actual face to face. There are lots and lots of non-verbal messages which we read and notice unconsciously in an actual talk. However, there is always something missing on ZOOM call or call. And gradually, you and your friends cannot share the same atmosphere or feeling. In the worst case, you can lose your friend because of the difference of understandings. So, I feel really dangerous in today’s social distanced recommended situation. We need to talk face to face. Not over the phone, but physically. That’s the meaning of life and that’s the only way of tuning our musical instruments. We could lose our harmony with our precious friends.

“Apocalypse Now” and the Coronavirus Pandemic

This kind of overdoing masterpiece film would never be created again

Everyday we hear the news about how Coronavirus doing since February or March till today around the world. Every channel you see on TV or radio around the world must be talking about how this pandemic going and why we can’t expect tomorrow’s world. Some are totally at a loss staying at home with feeling time passes so quickly, others are at a loss working at front lines with time passes so slow. Personally, I have slight feeling of guilt, for I can’t support any medical workers or people who are working for making today’s world somehow stable and civilized. I really thank you from the bottom of my heart.

All I cloud do today was also just staying in my house as much as I can, so I watched “Apocalypse Now” at this moment. This movie was a kind of my bucket list movie, and I could finally watch this final-cut version. Perhaps this movie is too famous to explain though, it is a kind of masterpiece film concerting on the Vietnam-War. It totally describes how soldiers becoming mad through the meaningless war. There were so impressive and grotesque scenes, and in terms of that, I think there will be no films like this in the future (there are too many legendary behind-the-scenes story of this movie).

Anyway, the story is in Vietnam in 1970, Captain Willard (Martin Sheen) takes a perilous and increasing hallucinatory journey upriver to find and terminate Colonel Kurtz (Marlon Brando), a once-promising officer who has reportedly gone completely mad. The film captures how the Captain and his company are also going to be mad under such an unreasonable environment. I feel like really sick during watching this movie, and in terms of that this is really the great film.

What I felt really strange or weird was that I felt this movie as a kind of metaphor of today’s pandemic situation. Everyone has noticed that this pandemic situation could be one of the biggest 21st century’s turning point, but some are very optimistic about it and others are not. Maybe Vietnam War could have been seemed like this way. If we capture this pandemic just by optimistic view like the United States tried to think they were winning, we can overlook some chaotic facts that really happens in the scene.

The social value or system is turning around these days. We live in a world where we can save many lives by putting your heat into a video game in your house, global economy never stands easily like before. Maybe we could see the real “fear” of this pandemic from now. I don’t want to fuel your anxiety though, we really move and think carefully with calm mind.

Today, a 28 years old Japanese Sumo wrestler has passed away due to the COVID-19. According a Japanese news source, he was sent from hospital to hospital when his condition was in emergency for long time, and it is thought to be one of a main reason of his too early death. I am 27 years old now, and I really am shocked by the news. I’m so sad hearing his death, and I became so scary. However, since nobody knows true answer, we just need to do our best in our roles. I just don’t want to be a person who just worry about, but I’d like to fear the problem with right and calm way, and I will never forget that we have still bunch of hopes. Below is one of my favorite quote.

“There’s no such thing as a perfect piece of writing. Just as there’s no such thing as perfect despair.”

Haruki Murakami, Wind/Pinball

Thank you for very much for reading. Stay Positive together.