Time flies so fast. I’m feeling like my basic personality hasn’t been changed from high school days. Actually that doesn’t mean much to me. I mean, I feel like I’ve been always in trouble since my high school days. The core problem I’ve been thinking from my high school days was “Who The Hell Am I?” What is my future I should pursue or what would be the most suitable job to me. I don’t know what this disease is called. I’ve been looking for myself. What is my passion anyway, or like that.
To focus and try to solve the problem, actually it is not a good idea try to be alone in my case. One of the biggest reason why I broke up with my ex girlfriend was because she frequently talk about the marriage plan after being in a relation after 1 year and a half month. It is really usual thing to think about such thing for 27 or 28. But, something has not made sense in my mind, and I asked her to end the relationship. The excuse at that time for her was “because I have things to do before getting married”.
Now, more than a year has been passed since the breaking up. And then I hit upon an idea. The excuse was bullshit. Nothing I could achieve, and I couldn’t do anything great with all my alone time. Rather tried to hang out with friends and became more lazy guy, who don’t care future that much. Without “push”, I can’t do anything, then I realized.
And now, my life situation has been changed. My serious marriage plan is suddenly emerging before me. There is a woman who “push” me to think of and face my future seriously. Thanks to her, now I can feel very motivated and positive against the future. Now I’m feeling like I should drive it like you stole it.