Somebody can push you

Time flies so fast. I’m feeling like my basic personality hasn’t been changed from high school days. Actually that doesn’t mean much to me. I mean, I feel like I’ve been always in trouble since my high school days. The core problem I’ve been thinking from my high school days was “Who The Hell Am I?” What is my future I should pursue or what would be the most suitable job to me. I don’t know what this disease is called. I’ve been looking for myself. What is my passion anyway, or like that.

To focus and try to solve the problem, actually it is not a good idea try to be alone in my case. One of the biggest reason why I broke up with my ex girlfriend was because she frequently talk about the marriage plan after being in a relation after 1 year and a half month. It is really usual thing to think about such thing for 27 or 28. But, something has not made sense in my mind, and I asked her to end the relationship. The excuse at that time for her was “because I have things to do before getting married”.

Now, more than a year has been passed since the breaking up. And then I hit upon an idea. The excuse was bullshit. Nothing I could achieve, and I couldn’t do anything great with all my alone time. Rather tried to hang out with friends and became more lazy guy, who don’t care future that much. Without “push”, I can’t do anything, then I realized.

And now, my life situation has been changed. My serious marriage plan is suddenly emerging before me. There is a woman who “push” me to think of and face my future seriously. Thanks to her, now I can feel very motivated and positive against the future. Now I’m feeling like I should drive it like you stole it.

2 responses to “Somebody can push you”

  1. Friend A says:

    What do you mean when you say “push” from ex. Did she ask you to become A or B or C? Or do you find becoming A makes her happy?

    I personally don’t think your friend pushes you at all. All what it tells is, she inspires you, but the person who finds or pushes your great future ahead is not anybody else but you.

    Good luck.

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    • Tomoharu Watanabe says:

      Dear Friend A
      Thank you for your insightful comment. You are right. The world “push” seems a bit inappropriate here and I should have written more about her. What I wanted to tell you, the precious readers was, I fell in love these days, not being in relationship for now, but I want to be in relationship with her soon in the future. However, there are several problems to be in relationship, and now I need to overcome such difficulties. Then, to overcome those, I need to be changed. I need to think about my future really seriously and carefully choose the future that I really want to live. This is how and what I think these days, and I want to thank her for making me serious about my future. That’s why I somehow used the world “push”. I felt like she pushed my back to the brighter future. And yes, I want to be what I want to be. Thank you so much for your comment.

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